TORN

I have been doing a lot thinking and it comes down to a few things...The first being god, does he exist or what is is "him".
Its simple god is everything, we are part of god we are like a seed that has grown into what is now. I believe science is a
explaination to what god is, and people are naturally curious what god really is. I have come down this we should embrace
anybody that is non god believing because all they need to know is the bible is the teachings, basically a guide book on
how we should live our lives and what can keep us from ending up in a bad part of life. Then the next thing is really going
to open up your eyes if this all came from absolutely seemingly nothing, then don't you think time in itself can be adjusted?
Imagine yourself sometime in future and we have mastered science, we have a better understanding of heaven and earth and true
purpose, although by then nothing happens naturally we live for as long as we wish, every entertainment has been watched,no
eventful news, nobody acts irregular because everyone acts one certain way. Would you go back to a time were we were primitive/
technology advanced because it makes sense to live and die for something other than what we humans created as constant? Just to
think we are in that particular time frame. The biggest mind teaser would you know it happened if time could be bended, and
it had happened many times over. I have no proof it happened and there would be no proof! You would be left dumbfounded! It
makes sense to wake up and fight for something as a human, that we may have fought for many times over most wouldn't even
know it. Now I am going to talk about here and now "REALITY" we deal with a slew of problems and everybody is living on a
breath of wind. The most boggling of it all is what do people really want, will they ever be happy? I ask myself what I would
want and I draw sad conclusions ): Because what makes sense to me is here and now although everything is constantly changing,
that we are getting to a point where a line can or needs to be drawn. I look at my life for guidence, I look at the problems
I have faced and they were terrible experience yet very good wholesome one of kind moments that you can only give credit to god
for. I experience unimaginable pain that makes me think that the very bad isn't worth the good that living for heaven earth represents.
I am so torn I couldn't pick if I had that very decision to change everybodys life for good or bad, I am sure many people would
be left with the that exact feeling. I want the best for everybody, nobody should suffer at the same time what will people wake up for?
I am left with so many questions and no answers.